По дороге зашли в @coffeedachastistra и взяли вкуснейший кофе.
Я всегда беру латте с ванильным сиропом и не всегда нравится, что получается.
Но тут идеальное сочетание вкуса для меня. Не горько, и не приторно сладкое.. Вот прям золотая серединка👌🏻
Latergram - Centre Point. I walk past this building daily, the area around Tottenham Court Road has undergone a massive transformation and Centre Point is acting as its beacon. #shotoniphone#placemaking
I’m just sorry.
I’m sorry if 2018 was a shitty year or that 2019 hasn’t started off well for you. I’m sorry if you have been dealt an impossible hand since childhood. I’m sorry if you’ve never been loved the way I have. I’m sorry if I’ve taken my relationship with you, along with numerous others for granted. I’m sorry you continue to feel like you are not enough because of the inadvertent damage I am still trying to rectify.
I’m sorry I couldn’t save you from an ever-growing sadness, that I couldn’t physically be there every time you felt the need to hurt yourself. I’m sorry I didn’t like your photo, tweet, or snap and that you caught me double tapping a post about a dog. I’m sorry I didn’t always have the right words to help make sense of the tragedies you endured. The truth is, I’m embarrassed to be a “writer” that’s somehow only good on paper.
Life is not perfect, neither am I. I’m sorry I can’t change either of those facts. The heaviness of how sorry I am, the guilt I am continuously going to bed with, I can’t carry it anymore. It feels like there is an anvil on my chest, and it is crushing me. I have to let go or be dragged.
So, if you have anything you want to criticise me on or blame me for, you can leave it here. I won’t be upset, hell, I’ll probably agree that I deserve it.
But you should know, come sunrise tomorrow, I’m not carrying any of it anymore.
Note to self: you do NOT have to keep setting yourself on fire to keep other people warm.